We Aren't Good People

I'm going to be honest in this post. Adoption is incredibly difficult, but probably not for the reasons that you're thinking. Yes, we need to raise a ton of money. Yes, we will be traveling half way around the world to go to our little guy. No, those aren't the reasons that this adoption is hard. 

Making the decision to adopt is so very different than making the decision to try and become pregnant or to have a baby biologically. Once you get pregnant, you typically don't have the choice to just stop being pregnant. When you make the decision to adopt, you always have a terrible voice in the depths of your mind that loves to remind you that you can quit anytime on the journey to finalization. When times get tough, that voice gets a whole lot louder. 

As adoptive parents who are on the journey, we need people checking in on us and reminding us that God gave us a command and that He will help us complete it. We need friends and leaders and family to push us forward. 

We don't need people telling us what a great thing we are doing. Many days we struggle to even stay the course and not throw in the towel. We aren't doing a good thing because we are good people. We're just saying yes to God, day after day and pleading that He'd lighten the load and give us courage to take another tiny step.

So, if you're reading this, and you think we chose this path and we've got it all together; we didn't and we don't. God chose it for us, and we need your encouragement to keep saying yes everyday.